Thursday, April 2, 2009

Ermelinda... for you

As she sat on her chair, fighting to hold on, she looked at her family and knew it was time for her to say goodbye. She knew it was the right time to journey on. She wanted to stay for one more moment, to say one more thing. She wanted to let them know that it was alright and that she was ok, she was going to be with her love, which she missed immensely. Some were ready to let her go and some were trying to make her hold on just a little bit longer…guilt racing through their spine. But she just looked around at her surroundings and realized that that was no longer where she wanted or needed to be. That she was free to find her new home. Her daughter, her companion for so long, was there wishing that she would find peace and for her, she decided to this. So she closed her eyes and relaxed. She breathed deeply, taking her lasts breath from this earth that has brought her joy and pain. She opened her eyes and she was standing in a meadow… it was glorious and warm. She heard laughter and talking and though she could not see clearly yet, she felt at peace. She followed this path to this beautiful garden. She smelled the flowers and touched the petals. She was at total peace. She walked further down the path and she looked into the water, noticing every little ripple, as a memory in time. She loved them, all of them, and knew that some would have a hard time now that she had gone. She closed her eyes and prayed to God asking him to help them. He would take care of her loved ones, she was certain. She walked a little further and looked into the sky, it was warm and inviting and it made her at peace again. She continued to walk slowly to cherish every last moment, every last memory. She looked down the path and there was a gate, it was gorgeous. It was everything she expected. She smiled and hurried up her steps. She couldn’t see what was beyond the gates, but she knew and she was happy. Slowly the gate door opened and he was there standing, smiling and reaching out his hand. Tears flooded both of their eyes as they quickly came together and embraced. He looked down into to her eyes, and she looked up into his, both filled with tears of joy and sorrow. I missed you he said to her, I have been waiting for you. She looked at him and said, so have I. They both embraced again and walked through the opening, and the door shut. At that moment, the last breath had quickly escaped her body and at that moment, she was finally home.

I am sorry Grandma… I am sorry I never truly got to know you and I am sorry that you are gone. In my heart, I know that where you wanted to be. Thank you for showing me, thanks you for being a part of my life, and I truly hope you are at peace.
Love your Granddaughter,
Melaine Schweighardt

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